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and we are so fragile
and our cracking bones make noise
and we are just


..breakable girls and boys

dear you

oh man. you are such a BASTARD !

living abroad

is like walking day by day, without knowing whats gonna be at the end of the road.
sounds very cool, until u face the real world in front of u.
worse, u cant run or hide.
makes u realize, u arent 10 years old anymore.
teaches u how to cook, wash, and sew.
sometimes it pushes u so hard, u think u couldnt even take a single breath.
takes away ur precious weekend because u have to work.
gives u chance to smell the wind and feel the grass under ur feet in a different way.
provides u as much freedom as u wish.
reminds u about something called self responsibility.
punches u in the face with the worst and most painfull experiences.
cheers u up with tons of opportunities and interesting stories.
builts up ur confidence and self esteem.
might be the golden years in ur whole life.

i just cant find another way to describe this thing.

smile (:

smile, though your heart is aching
smile, eventhough its breaking
when there are clouds in the sky
u'll get by

if u smile with ur fear and sorrow
smile and maybe tomorrow
u'll find that life is still worthwhile
if u just light up ur face with gladness
hide every trace of sadness
although a tear may be ever so near

thats the time u must keep on trying
smile, whats the use of crying
u'll find that life is still worthwhile
if u just smile

*smile - charlie chaplin

arrivederci winterferien !

winter holiday officially ends today. setelah 1 minggu labor kimia, 4 minggu praktikum di klinikum, akhirnya gw hanya bisa mengecap 11 hari nikmatnya liburan. surely, im still craving for more heheh. tomorrow ab 8.30 uhr rutinitas ngampus - nugas - ngerokin es krim kembali dimulai. oh yeah gw balik lg ke häagen dazs. welcome summer, welcome hand sprain :p

i couldnt fulfill my promise to tell u more about my internship. not that interesting though, cm 1x ngeluarin 16 staples bekas operasi meningeom, 2x nyabut central venous catheter, 2x nyabut urin catheter, ca. 12x nyabut jarum infus, berkali-kali cabut pasang antithrombosestrumpfe, ganti sprei, mandiin, nyuapin, dan ngajak ngbrl pasien. oia, 1x ngajak pasien main ular tangga. soo much fun (:

intermezzo aja, dalam 11 hari kyny berat gw nambah (terlalu) banyak, secara kerjaan gw cm online - makan - jalan - nonton - tidur. geez. dan krn tangan mendadak gatel pgn bikin muffin, jadinya gw beli backmischung chocochips muffin di rewe. not bad lah, tmn gw yg notabene jago bgd bikin kue aja blg muffin gw enak :p trus bkin popcorn dan martabak telur. trus hari rabu dtg segerombolan anak nürnberg krmh gw, dan bbrp dr mereka pgn mkn di chilli pepper. jadilah kamisnya kita mkn ky orang maruk dsana. trus sabtunya mkn di maredo. masih di hari yg sama kita ditraktir mkn sm si tante di indochine (perut gw mw meledak rasanya) dan ditutup dengan ditraktir kino abend di cinecitta.

i cant ask for more, ngeliat makanan aja skr rasanya lgs kenyang. hahah. gpp, cadangan lemak untuk 3 bln sebelum mulai skip-skip makan krn gada waktu. willkommen, sommersemester ! be nice !